The easy way out

Someone tell me what to do? The only reason I am alive is promises to people to stay that way, but surely if these people don't care about the promises then what matters?

I feel.

Feel alive, feel amazing, feel astonishing, astonishingly good, and today has been fantastic, life changed. X

Jump

Jump with me now. X

A permanent sleep

Is on the horizon, I don't know what else can help anymore. I can't take getting rejected anymore.

If this

is contagious, and is going to infect everyone around me, everyone I love and cherish, then why do I carry on? Surely it would mean more to them for me to leave, with no chance of returning. Surely they can understand, that its hard enough without seeing them struggle. x

I know it's more than that.

But ultimately, rejection makes me feel worthless. How much longer can I go?

Blur

Is there anything that is simply divisible by a fine line? Sanity and not, hardly a good starting point. It all fits a sliding scale. Reality and not, hardly easier. Where does one begin and the other end? Does either ever exist independently? I doubt this soul will ever know.